I spoke with my T about my transference to her not more then 1.5 hours ago. I told her I transferred my feelings of needing a mother to her, so in my mind she became my mother. She knew that. Hell we even reffered to it as the elephant in the room today! T in turn gives me what she thinks is best not what I want. It's frustrating to say the least, In my mind I took all the little things I knew as fact about T and took an educated guess at the rest , a combination of my dreams and her possibilities. I then became attached to the T I created, maternally, not the RL T, man she's just that good...lol. But, I recognize it and that is good. Talk about it with T, it helps.
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