Well I did hear from someone (this is such a small town-everyone is connected...good and bad about that for sure) that he was sicker than he has ever been...sooo this in itself scared me and I hope he is not in the hospital...but I guess i would have heard that too...I know he probably isn't up to responding..that is why I'm hesitate to email...dang..I have a draft I've started..I might just send it and tell him that I know he probably doesnt feel like responding but if I could just hear one thing...