So I have my first session tonight at 5:30 (only another 7.5hrs). And I'm going between freaking out (thinking I'm gonna be physically sick) and an errie sense of calmness.

So I still haven't figured out what is so scarry about therapy. There isn't much in life that scares me, I have no problem jumping out of planes, ziplining over the jungle, public speaking, needles dont even scare me anymore. And yet there is still this irrational fear of therapy. I just don't get it

Guess I'm just looking for some "pocket riders", so I can't find an excuse to back out of it last minute.