As it is now, I got home yesterday and my father was extremely intoxicated. I did not feel safe in the slightest. Knowing that no one who cares about my well being would want me to be there, I walked the mile to my friend's house where I stayed last night and will probably stay tonight. I am gong to speak to my father tomorrow and try to work some things out with him.

I don't expect the man to actually listen to me, however, I have a place to go if needed, and will try to convince him to go to rehab. The issue now is money and his willingness. If anybody could give me links to progrrams that provide some sort of financial aid, or something along those line, I would be most appreciative.

I have been flitting from hapiness, worry, anger, and calmness all day. I am worried that this may just be the situation, or if it's signs of mania. I, unfortunately, have little way of figuring out whether or not it is neither, considering the issue of money.

I want to get across that I am not posting this for pity or something along those lines. I just want help, and advice, NOT attention, since I have been accused of that before. I appreciate all of your concern and support, and am happy that I came to these forums, considering I wasn't sure about posting here before.

Thank you~
Samuel Cross-Meredith.