I have OCD, too, but I don't have any answers, either. However, I have to ask, are you currently pregnant? I wasn't sure about that from your post. I don't want to scare you, but there was a recent news report that drug companies are in trouble, because they gave misinformation concerning the risks of certain drugs, and promoted them falsely to doctors. These drugs include Paxil (which I read can be dangerous to pregnancy) and Neurontin. You might want to talk to your doctor about that.