Thank you so much for your time and your response, RapidFlyer. It means a lot to me.
I'm not currently working with a T. I had a good one, who taught me to manage the anxiety and depression but she fell ill and left her post. Until my depressive episode broke, she only ever saw me in session, so she was only willing to acknowledge DID as a long shot but I realize now, a lot about my life and behavior I didn't tell her because it just wasn't in front of me or I didn't want to talk about what the others were up to.

Since I stopped seeing T, we've been in the process of getting health insurance in a new state and getting set up with a doctor and the local MHS agency. It's been going slowly because the others don't want to do it, don't trust doctors (aside from one visit to the ER last year, I haven't seen a doctor in 11 years) or the system and will do just about anything to avoid structure or intervention. I know they're trying to protect me, they don't want people to find out about us but even though I am aware there are risks, I want to get help, especially if it means life could get better.

I've been working on sorting out who's who. I've known the lady of the group (I don't know how old she is. She's young and old at the same time.) cares for the youngest (he's four, almost five) and the three of us are usually together. Only last night, I realized the two of them go to bed early, leaving me up with the teenagers (there are at least two, the playboy and the androgynous 'good kid') and assorted rifraff, which I'm not sure about. Some of them are fragments but I think there are some full fledged alters among them, a beligerant feminist anarchist (who starts fights and hands them off at the last second to a nonviolent alter) and a guy that isn't really anything and can't or just doesn't really speak. Another one writes frantically, usually in public. His thoughts race and he only speaks in anger and only when interrupted. There's at least one that can't see well and a dog. There are more but the lines blur sometimes.

Right now, it's basically two teams, the 'mother/child' team and the 'other' team. I think you're right, RapidFlyer. The other team stays up at night because I don't give them time during the day. They get time to do whatever they want on the internet but I stay home a lot more than they would like, partly because of the depression but also out of concern for the trouble they might get into.

The other team wants to walk for long periods of time. I don't think they care if it's during the day or at night but I'm concerned about their activities. It worked out fine when we lived in a city, we could just walk indefinitely and as long as we kept moving, there was rarely a problem but here, in this small isolated town, people stare at us enough as it is. I agree that we need to be organized to succeed on any level. I will keep trying to rally everyone and get us as close to the same page as possible.

Thank you again, RapidFlyer. It's inspiring to read about your acceptance and that the work you've done has paid off. I can't tell you how much I appreciate your words and support.