OK, so I've been depressed for months because of my Trileptal and I started 30mg Cymbalta. Well, the 30mg gave me bursts of energy on and off. The p-doc gave me 60mg and I started that Sunday. I had been trying to force myself to do things without much luck.

Well, yesterday, I had a small burst of energy right before I went in to teach. It lasted for about 3 hours, then I crashed again. Today has been mostly unproductive, but I had about a 40-50 minute feeling of normalcy so I vacuumed. I have a lot to do, but I am not feeling as if I can do any of it again. The bursts of energy (especially yesterday) gave me hope, but now I am feeling hopeless again.

I am half tempted to take myself off Trileptal. My p-doc is out of the office until the end of next month and I can't keep going like this. I feel barley able to function as of late. I can't check myself into a hospital because (a) I am not sui, (b) I couldn't do my work there if I do get a burst of energy, and (c) I am terrified of such a thing (not to mention I don't have the money to pay for it).

I suppose I could call the clinic at the school and ask to speak to a nurse or something. Maybe I could at least get the med changed. I have stayed on Trileptal since November and my p-doc insisted I try it for more than a month. It's been two months and, yes, it takes care of the mania; but the mania isn't a problem to me!!! Yet, I already called last week, so I don't want to be a bother.

Sorry, I feel like I am whining; but I honestly don't know how I am going to make it through this semester as far as functioning.