I just keep wondering if and when I will feel safe enough to talk about why I feel so ashamed and guilty about the sexual abuse and maybe even remember everything that happened instead of just fragments. I posted about one huge thing for me on the abuse forum and the response was really low key and supportive. So maybe it's not the huge deal in reality that it is in my brain.

My T has been really reassuring and I feel safe(ish) with him. He says he will not reject or judge me, or leave me. My experience with him so far is that this is the truth about him.

But, just the thought of talking about it out loud makes me feel ill. So What's it take to actually spit the words out?