I know it probably wasn't a worthless session today, but I feel like it was. I didn't talk about the things I wanted to talk about, I couldn't get the words out. I spent half of my time just trying to stay present and not panic, as we worked on a difficult issue.

I just feel like I wasted my hour with my T today. I was struggling to talk to her, panicing, dissociating, and I wasn't brave enough to say the things I wanted to say. I feel like it could have been so much more productive of a session. On the plus side, I really connected with my emotions, but that did make it even harder to actually talk to my T.

I hate that I only have an hour with T...it took me so long to get started and I spent so much time dealing with my panic, that I just feel like I needed more time with T.