Turns out I wouldn't fit at the reseearch program at Mass General according to a phone screening they gave this afternoon. There is a one time consultation that I am going to look into after my pdoc appt. next week. I figured out the feeling I have had, and it it a feeling that I am working through veery thick cornsyrup. I can see everything going on around me and I simply can't respond or my response is too slow. I've been getting so confused. Days of the week, did this happen yesterdayor today stuff, forgetting things that people tell me. It takes a long time to write an email or type a post between those things and my hands shaking from Deoakote.