Ugh, I hate those sessions where I am so busying controlling the panic that I can't actually "accomplish" anything. T always says, why do we have to accomplish anything? Maybe this is what you need to do today, sit with the panic.

I can't really wrap my head around what he's trying to say (yet). I do think a lot of my frustration comes from wanting to connect with him (by talking) and feeling like I didn't achieve that. T says we connect even when we don't talk, but I don't usually feel that way.