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Originally Posted by LylaJean
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I don't know what I'd be told. I guess a part of me just wants him to acknowledge what he did, ya know? He pleaded not guilty and tried to act like it had never happened, and that hurt. Just having to defend myself and convince a jury and judge that I wasn't lying; that this man did hurt me. I think it was hardest because even my family doubted me. In our case, only my best friend (the man's fiancee) and I knew without a doubt what happened. That hurt. She's the only one that can truly understand what happened because she was in it with me. I also want to know if he was doing a drug at the time that made him act that way. I think he may have used cocaine beforehand, and I want to know if he would have done that to me without the cocaine or if the drugs made him act that way. I just want to know why. I don't know if it would make me feel better, but I know it would give me more to work with as far as my recovery. I've also thought about talking to someone else who had committed a sexual assault like that. I guess I really shouldn't expect him to tell me honestly what was going on, but I desperately want him to. Does that make sense?
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LylaJean- I am so sorry that you had to go through this.
Just the simple acknowledgement is what I think it comes down to- (Right?). It does sort of validate you- meaning people to acknowledge that they did wrong and hurt another.
As Purple Flying Monkeys mentioned it give some sort of simi closure but not a full one.
As Open Eyes Mentions it is validation for you.
I do hope that you find what you need to recover-
And thank you for sharing that - I am sorry that I prodded to and asked
HappyDaisy-- Thank you so much for that- I really like that idea and really think that could help some people- I wish I could find someone that may be able to help me with that (like a Therapist) I don't think my T I am seeing now would even go any where near that. I was thinking about it earlier when I first went through and read y'all replies here... Some times I just can't imagine- and i need help with that.
but Maybe if I try a little harder I can do this- I really like the idea though.
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Also this
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And the people that are just monsters- they feel remorse of what they do.
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was to say
And the people that are just monsters- they *Don't* feel remorse of what they do.
Sorry for my typo-