I'm so tired of feeling this way. I feel like I've lost myself. I don't think the same way I used to, sleep the same, feel the same I just don't know what's wrong with me. I'm scared of everything, I won't drive on the highway anymore, I can't hardly describe how I actually feel or my thoughts. But I'll try and you guys tell me what you think. I've been diagnosed OCD, severe anxiety, depression. The depression is because of the anxiety and ocd.
I'll start with the most bothersome to me.
I get weird thoughts that make no sense.
Before sleep I get these strange images in my head.
Songs get stuck in my head all the time.
I'm so scared of becoming schizophrenic, it's all I think about.
I have a huge feeling it's something more than ocd and anxiety I can't shake. Sometimes I'll feel almost normal until I'm by myself or un distracted. I don't even know why I'm posting this I just can't sleep and needed to vent.
I'm laying down at my girlfriends at 430 am and just wanna go home because that's pretty much the only place I feel comfortable. All of this came out of the blue like 4 months ago and sometimes it gets better then it gets worse, I just don't understand it. I see my psych tomorrow but I haven't even tried the medication that he prescribed because I'm scared of it. I don't think he takes me that serious. This is an everyday all day constant struggle that effects every part of my life. I don't remember the last time I felt joy. I'm just numb. I feel stupid almost. I used to be witty, funny, confident, and logical etc. but now I'm just completely different