so i took my meds and everything, and was even up during the day and was active too, but tonight i still cannot sleep! negative thoughts are racing through my head, and bad memories and bad emotions like depression and anger and fear are coming up and i just feel miserable. I've thought of giving in to SI but haven't i don't want to mess up in that way, but it crosses my mind a lot. my depression is getting so bad lately and I'm taking my meds right and everything. i hate these stupid emotions and negative thoughts so bad. i just want to be asleep, and not awake, awake sucks, i want rest. i am spiraling down. could use some support. I've tried many things to sleep, like ambient music and thunderstorm sounds (sometimes it helps), lying in bed for hours, playing some puzzle games, took a shower, took some anti-anxiety meds, deep breathing, cuddling with boyfriend it just does not work tonight! i hate this so bad. hope i don't get in trouble for talking so much about insomnia in the emotions section of PC. to stay on the topic, my emotions are so intense and miserable i am just gonna spiral out of control!