Do you know what sparked your fear of becoming schizophrenic? Was someone close to dxd maybe? Did you have a 'weird' experience? I'm asking bcoz in the past, when I have become paranoid I try and rationalize it, eg, why? What are the chances? And while it doesn't offer immediate relief, I am able to see that logically, my fear is unfounded. Then I counter the paranoid thoughts with 'that is irrational'... Just a thought. Sorry you're struggling.