i just want to add...sometimes you can get validation that the abuse happened & it was real & it's not you in other ways..outside sources...

i was able to do that by finding out about my cousin the pedophile priest...knew he was odd even when i was a child. knew when i was sold & had to live in his house with my uncle he was evil (whole house was evil)...but yet as an adult i had no solid proof...& there was no way to really ask, or solve the puzzle...

until i saw his name on the list of priests subpoenaed by the court...yep. boom made it all real...wasn't just false memories. i was sold, i was raped, i was abused...etc.

so sometimes...search other places for the validation if you can't have face to face contact...the internet is a marvelous source of information