Writing... Could definitly try that.

Sannah, I just didn't like it, it wasn't for me, and I was very open, honest,even candid, about EVERYTHING. I don't even understand the point of therapy. My 1st pdoc said I had great insight, and should just expand my coping mechanisms. He assured me I don't need therapy, I went anyway,at a friends reques.

Idk, maybe i'm just used to figuring it out on my own. Btw, took a hot bubble bath and smoked many cigarettes, so I'm safe for now, guess I just wanted to escape the pain.

I get that my urges are unhealthy, and I understand how you could think I don't want help. I find that communal support and venting in a safe place is therapeutic to me. And here I also learn new coping strategies. Before I only had 'breath' , 'punch an inanimate object', 'scream into a pillow' , 'fake it till you make it' and music... So it's ok if you find responding to my threads difficult, I appreciate the fact that you do, and understand if you don't.

If it turns out that the general consensus is that I refrain from posting bcoz I refuse to see a professional, I respect that. I don't want to hinder anybody's progress.