Hello.

I just got off the phone with my father and he denies everything, and blames me for all the things that have happened to him, and the worst thing is that he's convinced me. Or, at least some part of me believes him. I felt guilty considering that he has, more or less, taken care of me in part.

However

I still feel unsafe when I'm around him, as well as frightened. I will be going back in the morn as that is the most likely that he will be sober. He has said that he wants to put me up for adoption, and that maybe the only way out. I hope not, as I want the man to get well and don't want to watch him waste away under the influence of his sickness.

I am having such an outpour of emotion for all of you, including my friends who are doing well to help me through all of this nonsense. Thank you all ever so much.

Samuel Cross-Meredith