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Just to make it clear. I am just asking a question about when and if anyone get so depressed it gets to where it looks like there is no other option but sui and requires hospitalization.
This has happened to me twice that has required me to go to the hospital and once where the only way I made it through was promising my tdoc that I would come in and see him every two days and call and check in with him on the days I didn’t see him. But now my tdoc makes it sound like is so bad for me to be in that place.
I know all the times this happened I was having extreme depressive episodes. And my tdoc did help a lot. But now I feel so embarrassed, ashamed and stupid that I don’t know how I will get help IF (which I hope to hell it doesn’t) this happens again. It's not like I want this to happen. My bipolar is definitely not under control yet and hasn’t been since I was diagnosed. I keep going into these extreme depressions that last forever. I don’t know, this just came up in therapy and like I said now I am so afraid to reach out if this ever happens again. It's like he tried to scare me into never getting depressed again and sui.
Has anyone here had repeated sui episodes? Or is this maybe something else? Is it normal for bipolar patients to have repeated hospitalizations because of sui thoughts that were serious enough that it was clear they were not safe anymore?
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