I guess the thought started a few years ago. Yes someone close to me was diagnosed but it was drug induced. I would talk with him before he was and it spiked my ocd like crazy but it didn't really bother me that much I could shake it off. What really kicked all this off was googling what could be wrong with me then it all got worse and worse. Do people really not know that something is wrong with them in the prodormal stage of the illness? If I just knew this for sure I'd probably feel a little better but probably not.