i keep saying i dont know what to do
but its more like i dont know how to organize what to do.

everything seems very complicated. even going to the bathroom.
(please do not laugh, as i am not joking. i have no other place to spill my thoughts, as embarrassing as they are. ok)

my neighbors called in on me, said i was running outside with no shirt on.
i was not running. i was walking in the woods.