((((clouds and sun))))
I feel like this sometimes. Please don't go through these feelings alone. As my t reminds me, I have many people to call-her, my pdoc, my family doc, or even to go to the hospital. Also, you are a spiritual person, and I'll bet you have some friends that you share your love of God with. Maybe you can call on one of them to help you through this time.
I find the people here on PC so helpful, too. It makes me feel better to know that others are out there like me, so I'm really not alone. Please keep posting to let us know how you are doing.

Bluemountains