I beg to differ about it being "the only way (you) know how to deal with problems." You are here, asking for help. Give yourself some credit.

I attempted to get sober about 10 years ago. My husband at the time was urging me to do so. He drank also. When I decided to try, he would not do it with me so I asked him to leave. We have since divorced.

It did not stick that time. I needed to go further down before I hit bottom. I have now been sober 8 years. Using/drinking is not an option. Neither is having close relationships with someone who does.

You are also on medication? This is something you can't mess with. My mother used to do that & it is very dangerous. She was & still is on lamictal & just celebrated 6 years sobriety. Please take care of you