Hello,

I dont know if anyone is out there...but I feel so alone, I am just going to type. My Panic attacks are controlling my life and I cant help but feel sad all the time. I am recently married... but I think I may have made a mistake. He doesnt understand me. we are just two very different people. I lost my job, filled bankruptcy due to medical bills(and I am only 24!) I am living in a different state than the rest of my family with no family/friends anything around. I try to stay positive, but I am losing hope. I was never that person. I was always optomistic. If I try to explain my feelings to my Husband I hurt his because he says he is doing everything he can to make my life good and he says he is happy with his... but I am just not. I feel trapped. No car. No money. No friends, No Job. No life... Our relationship has just been on full speed ahead and I feel like I couldnt slow things down... everything is just spinning out of control. My Husband is gone all the time trying to make up for me being laid off so when he is ever home he is tired and grumpy. He tells me that I am holding him back from achieving his dreams... ironic because I feel the same way. But then he will go right back into the guilt trip - I do everything for you. My anxiety is through the roof and he doesnt understand why... Panic attacks hit me so hard and they are awful - I truly truly FREAK out. I am just lost, confused, so so sad... I dont know what to do. I feel I have nothing.