Hiya, ive read so many posts and i wish ya all wa well. im struggling, been out hospital after 13 months for past few months. having good days and bad. but i stopped self harming for coupld weeks, and have gone and blood let tonight, ontop of taking diazepam overdose, and amphetamines. my eating disorders are rearing their head and i am becoming unstable again. im scared of what im capable of. ive met the greatest guy who accepts me, but im gunna push him away.
i cant imagine life without behaviours that i do, and dont know what to do, if i stop one another one escalates. but ive done things since i was a child, and my alcohol abuse is high at the moment, ive done a lot of damage to my oesophagus wiv that and many years of bulimia and overdoses.x
hope someone can relate as i feel so alone and scared