Hi and welcome to this site! Have you read many of the posts from people
that have Borderline personality disorder ? I have, as i also have BPD.
I'm new to this site also and in the last two days yours is the second one
that i have read about self harming, I did cry when i read the post yesterday and i did respond to it. As it was as if i was reading about my daughter who is now 22 years old. How your life is now is so much like it was for my daughter. She self harmed from the age 14 to 18 , she saw a good therapist and had the support networks she needed. She still has her moments with anxiety and depression and finds it hard to maintain a relationship. Her boyfriend gave her the flick just recently and she is finding it hard to come to terms with it. I guess the main thing for her is at the age of 16 she set goals for herself, so many and she achieved them all !!! She now has a good job working in Pathology, which she really likes
and she looks after herself eg exerising, healthy eating and will not let herself get bored, as thats when the negativity tends to kick in. But she has balance in her life, will grab a good book to read which is her way of relaxing and walking she finds helpfull also. I do sincerly wish you the very best and remember every day is a new day for you, be kind to yourself.