I have not dated or even thought of dating a man since 2005. Prior to that, there were some relationships, usually lasting a couple of years. In between relationships would be long periods of fear and mistrust. I have not had one relationship where men were honest, trustworthy, heck even a couple were neglective, abusive (I was not hit but walls were punched), or, as in the last reelationship, he passed on an STI to me.

I have no trust at all. Any thought of physical contact with a non-related male repulses me. If a man even in humour, makes any sexual overtones, I want to hit him. (I don't but I feel like it).

I don't know how to get the trust back in relationships. My immediate thought is "Men just want sex and will lie to get it. You want sex, pay a prostitute, a--hole." I know that is not healthy.