I would NEVER give up my intelligence/cognitive function. It would flip me off, and then mood stability would be out the window anyway I had severe memory problems and trouble finding words when I was on lithium. I could no longer construct intelligable sentences, and it ticked me off that my English was at the same level as a 13y.o

I'd like to echo that you need to alert your pdoc, and tell him it's unacceptable. You shouldn't have to choose between the 2.