Thats what I'm doing...I'm stuck on one sentence he said... and a question he asked that I couldnt answer....

And combining that with something said earlier in session when we talked about how I take what people say and interpret it...instead of just believing their words because no one in my FOO ever said what they meant...He said "I will always say what I mean just sometimes I have to say it in a way you can hear it...."

I talked about some "reactions" I have today and there is not much of my childhood I remember or allow myself to remember that could be causing them and so whenever we go in this direction it just feels like falling in a black hole...there are no answers only darkness... and it makes me feel sad and lost...

In a year of therapy.... I have never called him...although he has told me I can but its not an emergency I can survive..... He's told me I can email at anytime but he may not read it for a day or two and he doesn't respond unless I ask him to... and then we always talk about it later...
In past, I just suffer through it and the feelings either get "pushed down" (which I'm great at) or pass... Thanks for all you suggestions... I will read my other post and try to remember the good...

I have such a headache....