Yeah, I understand all that. I'm still new at this, but all of my prior experiences with therapy were much more damaging than helpful. So it's kind of logical to see the whole thing as useless, especially since I got by without for a very long time.

I can see that it's a good idea in general, and I know it helps a lot of people. I'm trying to be patient with this, but I am so not patient! My T has already hinted that once meds are stable, I may be fine with much less frequent individual therapy or group therapy instead. I haven't seen any benefit so far after 3 months of therapy, but maybe there's something I haven't noticed. I don't know... I've just never been very good at the "wait and see" game.

I've also never been remotely inclined to OD, even when suicidal, and have always had access to the means to do that. So I don't think that's likely to be an issue for me given prior experience. But you're right that it can always change.