I'm sorry you are having some really difficult times. I'm sure they must be scary to you.
Unfortunately, we cannot diagnose anyone here. We are here for peer support and we may have ideas about things, but certainly we could not know for sure if you are schizophrenic or have any other disorder.
What you discuss can be attributed to a lot of different things. It would take a professional to run some tests and diagnose you.
I can tell you that it's very important to talk about what is going on with you to someone who can help you or to a professional. Getting a professional answer and help for what you are describing is very very important.
Please remember that any tests that you take online are purely for ideas in where to look for answers, they are not made for diagnoses purposes hon.
Please take good care of yourself and I wish you well.

sabby