I am new to this site and I don't even know where to go. I just click and click, take tests, I just want to have someone or group of people I can talk to whom can relate with me so I won't feel that what I have is different or I am different to others. I don't even know if I need help or even a professional help. I took some examination or assessment and so far the results are okay.
I have a feeling that I a controlling but I have a strange pleasurable feeling if I am controlled. In sex, if my partner does something to me even it humiliates me, I feel good. As long as I see him enjoying. I don't know if it's a sign of servitude but what I know I want to be served.