You are not a failure, not worthless and not alone in not really knowing what you truly want to do in life.

Everyone in my family went to college because it was "expected" of us. At that time, pretty much anyone who wanted to go could go. I struggled the whole way through, changed my major multiple times and 30 years later even though I have a job that pays my bills, I still don't know what I want "to be when I grow up". I still wish I had been allowed to take some time off and explore the world and get to know where my dreams in life could have taken me...

Shortly before my grandpa died (he was Prof at the college!) he told me that not everyone should go to college! What an eye-opener for me! I couldn't even believe that he said that! Especially at a time when I felt like a failure because none of my children had the grades and high test scores to get into college.

Please don't allow others to judge you. We all have special skills that can take us on to a wonderful life. We don't and won't follow the same paths to get there. We all own the right to determine the path that works best for us. Hard to accept and believe when we are very young - but as I've learned over the years, I now know that this is true.

If it helps in any way... One of my children finished community college, took a few courses at the University, but will be graduating from a technical school next semester. (He will be 27 this summer). I am so excited for him because he ignored the family and friend expectations that had been so ingrained and chose a career path that will use his innate skills and make him happy!

Think about what you want and where you want to go. Make the decisions that take you to what you want in life.

I wish you the very best!