It was recently christmas and for once i was looking forward to it but no everyone was a ***** and yelled at me for whatever reason but the thing is i hadn't done anything bad for them so i left early to loose a bit of my sanity and stare at the roof

four days later i meet my real dad and the family on his side, which whom i havn't seen in 22 years and i get a box of choklade....

then we have the whole relationship thing, im 29 years old havent had a real relationship ever sure i have had relationship before, just not with real love (where you feal it in your gut) but that was four years ago and i have had a total of 5 of them. i am not horrible to look at, i dont cheat, i don't hit women, i love equality so why would women want to associate with someone who will hurt them over and over (mentaly, like breaking up or cheating) again when all i want to do is to be there for them

I have just realized that sitting at the computer is boring, giving up on flirting then all i have is staring at the roof

i just feel like i am going insane with it all adding up