I sometimes get that "being monitored" paranoia. I guess my mom triggers it a bit with her stories how she had member of secret police and mics at her workplaces (she grew up during communism, so yes, this was real). Now she constantly tells me in half joking way how sure Russian hostels have informators in there or that some of the people whom I worked with in Russian NGOs might have been informators (well, there are stories of Kremlin having beef with NGOs......... so these may have merit). And I am slightly politically active........ so..... yeah.

as for forgetting things........ well, I am scatter brained (I actually did forget to pay my insurance this month. Paid it few minutes ago).

Yeah, i talked to somebody and feel bit better. Still need to declare my books that are held hostage in Prague, and it kinda freaks me out/bothers me (it's books. You can traffic arms and weapons here, but they will hound me over few books...).


and I will try to take breaks from school work. Last night I dreamt of Stalin, which.... is not good