I rarely visit this section of psych central. But, I am visiting today.
I have no memories before the fourth grade. This has always puzzled me. But, past psychologist wasn't surprised. The T that I had before the current one wasn't surprised either. Is it strange to have a void in my memory that huge? I mean my parents weren't nice to me. They almost never said a positive thing to me and said negative things quite a bit. My step-father had a scary temper but it wasn't exactly a real frequent event. But, if he yelled at me, he scared me. My sister has about the same void in memory. Lately, I have noticed that the memory void is probably larger than I thought. When I just focus on home memories rather than school memories, I think it is later in life. But, I am not sure because it is hard for me to remember much in the way of childhood at home.
I am tempted to try to do some work on childhood in therapy. But, I am not sure if I want to. I find talking about childhood turns me into the biggest cry baby that you could probably imagine. My current T hasn't asked much about it. But, I did share a bit about my childhood with her in the last session. She just asked me how I get along with my mom now.