Tonight, my mother broke down during dinner. She and dad had an argument, but I don't know what it was. So, while we were eating, mom went to the bathroom and cried.

I gave her a bit of time before I got up to see her. As I was leaving the table, Dad told me to apologize to her. For what - only he knew. I didn't care, I just wanted to comfort my mother.

She said she doesn't want to die, that the cancer has spread, and she wants to know why her. When her brother past away from cancer years ago, we believed it wasn't genetic, but now she thinks it is.

I told her that it's different. Not the same type of cancer, and the surgeon said he took all the cancerous cells/tissues out. But, there's not 100% guarantee.

Dad told her that the rest of us didn't want her to die even more, and kept on repeating that the surgeon cleared her.

He kept on and on. I told him that there is always this thought that maybe the cancer did spread but it wasn't caught, or that it came back. There is always that 'what if'. I told him that we can tell mom that we're there for her and all, but she's the one who is sick, she's the one who has to undergo treatments. I stopped short of saying that she's the one who'll suffer from the treatments.

I told mom to try to tell herself that until she sees her doctor next week, that there is hope. She could try keep holding onto that hope.

I don't know what else to do or say. I almost cried with her. I wish there are some magic words.

It's so hard, trying to comfort her on the one hand and trying to get dad to understand what she might be thinking and going through.

Dad gets very dramatic. When he gets introuble for saying the wrong things, he tends to say, 'You want me to die? Is that what you want?'. Well that is so bad, especially now with mom. I have a feeling he might have said something to that effect, and maybe that's what broke mom down. I dunno.

I want everyone to be ok. Just dont know how to make it so.