Hi Kureha,
I know how you feel. A few days ago I saw a guy crouching by my neighbours wall. Looked like he was pretending to point at a sign on the wall, but the angle of the camera, he could have been pointing it at me. I was nervous, so I walked quite fast, turned round, was sure he was pointing at me. So I took two photographs on my phone... but the quality of the photos isn't good, and it looks like nothing was there.

It's hard when you literally see someone kneeling six feet from you taking photos to disbelieve your eyes. People don't understand that. You tell them what you know is happening, what your senses are reporting to you, and they say "it's not real, it's all in your head." How can you believe that, when the very senses which you are using to talk to the psychiatrist, nurse, or whomever, faithfully report stalking activities, or whatever to you? How do you know which one is telling the truth?

I've had to work out what seems most logical, and what's easier for me to live with. I think I can only do so because I'm on medication which stops me from panicking so easily... but it's hard, very hard, to believe a doctor when everything around you says differently. I don't think the medical profession appreciate how difficult it is for us, and how much a leap of faith we take when we tell them our experience, knowing that they'll not believe us. It's far harder for us than it is for them, and I think they should give us credit for courage when we do open up, rather than dismissively pigeon holing everything as a hallucination. Maybe it is, but it's not for us. Appreciate the fact that we're traumatised. Don't dismiss it or snigger about it.

I think if the doctors treat us with respect it makes it easier to believe them. But the fact is it's a huge leap of faith. You've got to work out what's likely to figure out what may or may not be real. There's a lot of thinking going on... prepare for that, and don't panic. That's all I can say.