My t a couple weeks ago insisted I tell my husband that I was having cutting urges ,and that i was cutting, so he could hide what I usually cut with.

This was fine, and going well until the last week. I have been feeling awful and having cutting urges, but that wasn't an option.

3 of the last 4 nights, instead of cutting, I have taken vicodin with my other meds, to be able to sleep. I'm not experiencing any pain, so I didn't need the vicodin.

Now I have to go in to therapy tomorrow and admit this to my t, and admit to the thoughts and feelings I have been having, and I am scared as hell.

No real point to this post, other than me getting my thoughts out...