Trust is nice and all but the bottom line is, if I'm not doing my bit then nothing is going to happen. I just want to make sure I'm doing the right BIT, if you know what I mean. That's what I mean when I said the therapy is under my control, so I want to control it to my benefit.

We don't discuss daily goings on in my therapy, its only been about my childhood. And since I can't leave the house much, there are no daily situations to talk about in therapy. So there's just discussion of the past and I need to know how to work on this business between sessions or I will never recover. It is a tough one, thats for sure.

I'm going to try to talk her into getting me ECT next time I'm there though > I'm hoping she can pull a few strings to get me in there!