KazzaX, I'm confused because you said you're housebound and can't shower yourself. I'm assuming there's a reason other than your depression for that, right? But I remember in an earlier post you said your former t was concerned because you weren't showering as much. Do I remember that right? Have your circumstances changed since then so you can't shower independently now?

Anyway, you remind me of my ex-bf because you said you don't have very many feelings in another post. Do you tend to approach things in a logical way more than an emotional way? If you do, you're like my ex-bf in that respect. My ex-bf usually couldn't remember much of what was said during therapy. He didn't think about it much because he didn't know what to think about. He said therapy wasn't giving him any ideas about what he could do to change. That seems like you.

I'm going to disagree with Echoes and Skeksi a little. I think that for people who aren't used to thinking about feelings, it could be a good idea to think about feelings related to therapy. Or think about what you talked about in therapy, if you didn't notice any feelings.

I think maybe your last therapist said to stop thinking about your feelings because you started getting worse, and s/he didn't know what to do. I remember in another post you said therapy caused you to start having feelings, but they were negative feelings. You were getting a lot worse and then your t referred you. I think your t didn't know what s/he was doing. I think some therapists would have been able to help you when you started having feelings. I hope your current t would be able to help you if you started having negative feelings like you did before.

If I were you, I think I'd tell her in a LOT of detail what happened with your other therapist. Then I'd ask her if she could help you if that happened again.