Could be incredible but... im getting in peace by now. After my first post i got some relief and now i am just tranquil, it seems i accepted the reality and i resigned to it. By now i am not struggling or suffering too much. I am very sensitive to any bad thing people can say, specially mom and dad, but i can overcome it without think on dying. The only problem is that i am having problems to sleep and to awake, but considering my previous situation, this is heaven, i am being more positive, not much, just a litle, but is more than nothing... I hope that i wont get so depressed again... best wishes for all of you that are suffering as i am, thanks for the support also