To me those friends of yours who look at you different just because you're not in college cannot be called friends. You shouldn't be friends with someone who doesn't accept you as you really are. There are millions of people out there who didn't go to college but who still have a life and who are still happy. Are you sure going to college is what would make you happy? You shouldn't do something just because someone else thinks it is the right thing to do...you're the most important person to yourself and the first one you shold listen to. I know it is hard to figure out what exactly would make you happy but if you find the things that wouldn't make you happy then that's a good start.