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It's true that others can see you better than you can see yourself. You're a very intelligent person Kureha. If someone approaches you and is on point about the kind of person you are, you know if they are right or not. Even if you have others telling you they are wrong, even if you can't fully see it, you can feel that they are right.
Some doctors are quacks. It's driven me crazy reading the articles about the women up north who were convinced by their T that they had DID. So convinced he had them move back to the old town that they were in to continue therapy with him. He planted false memories. I was dx'd DID 10 years ago and still struggle with denial over the dx, it makes it that much harder to believe when doctors do things like that.
But when you meet someone, you know upon meeting them, you can pick up on their intentions. You can watch their manurisms and read them. If they are not someone you feel you can trust, find someone you can trust to confirm or deny their accusations. Just don't let the paranoia keep you from trusting anyone. Don't listen to the voices (if they are there) don't listen to the fear or anxiety but do listen to your gut feeling. But it's so hard sometimes to tell when it's your gut feeling or just your anxiety or paranoia. Learning the difference is what I've been working on lately.
Trust yourself. If you trust yourself you can learn to trust others. My boyfriend gets confused when I point out, almost everywhere we go, a pedophile or a theif or a just really bad guy. I can tell the bad parents from the good, the nice people from the mean. Really it's rather easy to pick it up. I read people, and about 85% of the time I am right and I am proven right. I've avoided so many horrifying experiences listening to my gut. It's gotten me this far. You can tell a lot about a person simply by how they carry themselves and how they talk. Trust yourself in making decisions and trust yourself in deciding to trust someone else.
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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