It's great to hear how you're doing

I wanted to reach out and say that I understand what it's like to have to go back to a place where you've been through hell. I had a horrendous summer in my parents' house five years ago, and avoided some rooms for years afterwards, because I felt certain that if I even opened the door, all that old pain would tumble out and consume me. Can you choose a tiny corner of the house, and make it 'yours' anew? Drive out the old demons with a bunch of flowers or a bright poster or a lovely smelling candle?

In terms of experiences of 'closure' with OldT, when I was in hospital as a teenager, there was an activity they used to do with patients in their last group session. It was called the 'bin and the bag'. They would draw out a bin and a bag on a big piece of paper, and fill them with what they wanted to leave behind, and what they wanted to take with them. I wonder whether this would be a more accurate way of reflecting on your therapy with previous T, instead of focusing on the 'great' stuff? It might also help you to feel less of a wrench about having to say goodbye?..