I don't think you are attention seeking. I think you're right, it's not up to anonymous people on the internet to decide who is attention seeking. I think most people like it when other people ask for help here.

It sounds like you got upset and sorry you felt like that. I hope you feel better.

Sitting with the feelings confuses me sometimes too. I don't think it means putting up with depression. I'm nervous about whatever it is we are supposed to do to get rid of depression, though. Sometimes I think my therapist must be really tired of me not getting it.