I read a study I may have mentioned it before where the guy figured out that the traumatized who say they feel nothing are being accurate - they have indeed succeeded in desensitizing as a defense. Yay for us. So half my T's job was to make it safe/possible for me to have tender feelings with him? Because it just wasn't happening, and I didn't know what MEANINGS to attribute to them when they did happen. "We both like Eli Manning, what does that MEEEEEAN????" Sometimes my mother is right, for someone who is so smart, I can be really dumb. But at least I can say THIS stuff is HER fault! She couldn't have enjoyed one TV show with me?! Always complaining!