<font color="#880000"> </font> I understand where you are coming from. I lost my mother and my father's parents in a car wreck when I was five. As far as I am concerned, I basically lost my father at the same time; since he was never the same after that and became an alcoholic and then died 19 years later. Luckily, I do have quite a few pictures of my mother, but very few memories. However, the few memories I do have I cheerish always. My life is a mess now; and like you, I feel it would have been different had I had more time with my mother. She was a wonderful person, and everyone loved her so. I know she definitely would made my life a whole lot different and hopefully I could have been more like her. But thank goodness, I had my grandparents (her parents), which unfortunately are gone now. All I know is that I cheerish what very precious little time I had with her and try to grasp what little bit I can from that.