I can't stand this, every day it gets worse, I have no one to talk to and no one understands me. Nobody will ever love me because I shut everyone out and treat them like they did something wrong when the only one creating all the problems is me. I hate myself. I can't do or say anything right, everyone expects too much of me and i cant handle it so i let them down. It hurts so bad just to live, anything makes me cry, but i have to hide it because nobody would understand. And i know no one will want to read this but I'm sorry i jud have to let it out, even though i know it wont help because a few mjnutes later ill be back where i started, with no one who gets it to talk to. I hate myself and everyone else, i will never be happy, and the world would be better off without me. I would give anything if I could just disappear.