I feel very leery about posting here. I have an issue with disclosing the fact that I am DID. I am not ashamed, it's just that most people just don't understand or even believe DID is real. So I have to be cautious.

I spend 99% of my days hiding that there are others inside. It's very hard work, it takes all my strength and it's very emotionally and physically draining. In saying that, hopefully whoever reads this will understand how hard it is for me to even post here, about this subject, and be gentle...

But, that's kind of beside the point of this thread. I just wanted to throw that out there because I'm afraid of being judged or anything...

Anyway, today my T said that I will never be able to have any kind of control unless I get to know everyone that's in my system. When I asked how I am supposed to do that, he said he didn't know.

I am really,really trying to get to know everyone, but I am not making very much progress. And I feel so frustrated and discouraged with the whole thing and I feel like giving up.

It would be much easier if they all just announced themselves. But that's not the case, so I'm really not sure what to do.

Any ideas or suggestions?